I am able to write this because I am having a moment of calm.
Calm has been scarce in my life lately.
It has been replaced by fear, hopelessness, anxiety, anger, and complete sadness.
Tomorrow we will take Jax to the state mental hospital for admission.
The stay is extended and we don't know if he will ever be back to our home.
Our child is ill.
We can do nothing as parents to fix it.
All we can do, is continue giving our son love and support through his life's path.
Where ever that path leads him, I hope it holds freedom from the pain and torture his own mind inflicts on itself.
I ask you to please keep my Jax in your thoughts, prayers and healing energies.
Thank you.
8 comments:
I believe this pictures portrays the "peace" that Jax is so desperately reaching out for. The Great Spirit in the sky knew exactly who Jax's parents were to be! It was all by design! It hasn't come without heartache, pain and tons of sacrifice but you were the "HOPE" this child severaly needed!
Love you to the moon and back!
Our hearts, thoughts and prayers are with your family and especially Jax. We love you all!
Can't stop thinking about you guys....can't stop thinking about Jax and this next transition. For all the years we've been talking about this, I never imagined this is how it would feel when it's really HERE and happening. One thing at a time Jol.....don't forget that. One thing at a time. We love you guys!
Raising a child comes with a price. Our emotions, money and time are what we invest. Their well being and future are not guaranteed. So we take it a moment, a day a month at a time and pray the end result makes them a responsible adult. I pray that you and Randy know that you have and always will be the best parents Jax can have.
PS
Who is the whackadoodle that keeps commenting with crap about "trends" and other stupid stuff...knock it off
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Through my tears I can only say nothing in this world is guaranteed. You have done your absolute best , both of you and you are surrounded with love ,prayers and positive wishes.I wish I could take some of the burden on myself and lighten yours. I can only urge you to feel all the love coming your way and continue to support each other.
Love from m-i-l
Silver Lining? Well, we haven't found that yet...but it will come. I pray this transition is accompanied by peace and acceptance. I know without a doubt that as a family, you have done right by Jax and yourselves. There is no question of the love and support he has received. That love and support which has sustained him up until this point and will continue for the rest of his life. He is your son :)
I love you all so much....
I read a saying on Facebook "I am ready for some blessings that aren't in disguise."
It fits...
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